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hey no one! this is the uneditied version of a live journal post. also i'd like to say, i really think the new pope looks like emperor palpatine from star wars, and if you don't agree you are a dirty pirate hookerr and i'm going to slap you in public. 
oh and i was thinking about updating this one, and getting a gold memeber ship.. seeing that none of my "friends" even know it's here. "my mother doesn't have breast cancer. for those of you who knew... which is no one. mom's had a breast cancer scare for the last 5 months... you know the entire time my closet friends all turned in to big assholes. but we learned on monday that's she's fine. so yay. i started class monday. i'm really in to it. and i pretty much hate everyone... no really, but i guess i just took it the wrong way when mary got saved over me three times, by at least 2 people that i considered close friends... what?! it made me feel like shit.(anyone who has no ida what i'm talking about, don't worry.. sometime I HAVE NO IDEA what i'm talking about) anyways. i'm taking a little break from the "friend" bullshit for a while, not to say i don't like you, but really when was the last time we got together and done something productive... or even entertaining? i'm tired of spending my weekends staring at eachother and asking, "hey what do you want to do?" i'm also tired of hanging out with ryan, thinking everything is cool and then being rejected. it's painful, and i'd rather you all just hang out with him, and don't call me. the last few months of my life have sucked, with my mom, my friends, and me not going anywhere in school, and i've been sitting here wondering why no one cares and if anyone would even listen to me if i try'd to be serious.. and i shouldn't have to. what are friends for if not to support us when we're low. but none of us do. when glhiene gets sick or has a problem, he won't talk to us for months, i have never known anything serious about alyssa, and it was 2 months after the fact that i learned gilbert's parents were divorced. that's not even all of it, we don't depend on eachother, or care. and i'm frustrated, and tired. i ran away from home on sunday to sit on a curb and cry because i didn't have anywhere to go. i wouldn't want glhiene to think i'm "emo" and annoying, or for people to start thinking of me as serious. heaven forbid anyone has problems or real emotions. i'm not even going to post this on live journal like i'm writing it now because ..... I WILL BE SHUNNED. i've learned that's what happens when people are themselves. fuck.
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